well, upset because i feel like a shit friend who cannot do much when my friends are having their lowest times. all i do is try to console them with the same words and i think it does not help even that little bit. i also know that i cannot do much because it has been quite some time ever since i touched this thing called 'love'. i think i am rusty at all the things i used to say to someone during their lowest. you know this feeling? it totally sucks. and it sucks real big time. i feel like fuck now. okay, and happy because after so long, vivian finally called and we talked for quite some time. so many things to catch up, but so little time to meet. nevermind, i am just glad we still contact each other every now and then & i so cannot wait till the 19th. babe, we got to take real lots of photos! also, i have been spending a hell lot of time with my girlfriends and friends & am so going to miss them. NYP freshman orientation is coming up this thursday. i hope i meet nice people. jia you! (:

went to meet my mum at her office, dad came to pick us up and we headed down to NYP to get my laptop collected. i bought a compaq 12.1 inch lappy. okay, and we had our lunch at kou fu in the school. went home, used the computer. jon and i went to meet den. ate seafood tomato from gelare and also a cookies craze sundae for dinner. jac and pris came after that, and also S.T. they ate, then we went to the playground to meet garner. left around 11pm. thats about it. okay bye..

- we have the opportunity to choose who our children's parents will be. (:

oh, and one more thing. pardon me for swearing in this entry. i think i am going my after-period emoness and i tend to think alot. well, i just hope things will be better for each and everyone who is going through some shit now. really sorry if i could not make any of your days better. probably am too lost and too shag to be saying anything. man, i really am not sure. i just am feeling kind of fucked up and i feel like a lousy friend. and i think i better stop my nonsence before i breakdown.

- all truly wise thought's have been thought already, thousands of times; but to truly make them ours, we must think them over again, honestly, till they take root in our personal experience. (: